I really have so much to say and yet I don’t even know where to start with.
Dear friends,
I know there is only a 0.000001% chance that those people whom I really want to let them know how I feel would be here. However, I am still pinning my 0.000001% hope for it.
I shall rewind myself back to the times that I was in secondary school. I used to be very happy in my class. Well, with my cliques of people. Although my cliques come from different places as not all of them were in the same school as me. There are very nice, superb fun clique to be with but I only can blame it myself being too petty and I guess I drove them out of my life not knowingly.
Sorry to Linda, Enqi, Yi Wen, Kim and etc. Thanks for being there for me.
God decided to gave me another chance, and he again brings me nice peeps around me which are my netball mates. We fought bravely through all matches. However, I am such a lousy captain and being the one who let all her teammates down, all left one another. Maybe when everyone left, there is still one remain and is very nice to me. My selfishness and jealousy drove my one last hope away.
Sorry to all my netball teammates for what I have done. I would also like to make my sincere apology to Li Min who was the one whom treated me very nicely.
During my last year in secondary school, things turn bad and I really do not know how to resolve. You know at that time, I hope to shout to the whole world and tell them how sorry I could be. I did not do it and even if I did, none will believe that I am telling the truth. If I can restart my life again, I wish that I have done better to be part of the class and be part of 4EA.
Sorry was the word that I really wanted to say but with no courage.
During poly days, everything was fine, I do have some people who were very nice to me and I hope I maintain the relationship well even after we graduated. You were the people whom given me strength, my pillar of hope once again.
I am very thankful to Sophia, Farhana, Melissa Lim, Ze Hui and my polytechnic mates. If I can do something different, I would hope to build an even better friendship with my polytechnic mates and not only my cliques.
My basketball teammates in polytechnic were terrific. Somehow, you all add colours to my life and also fufilling my dream to play basketball as a team. If I had another chance, I would choose to attend all the trainings and putting my best effort in it. I really misses all of you even till now.
At present, my colleagues were nice. They help me a lot I would say. The only problem that I may have was my scheduling. Much time, I had promised my colleagues of the outing and I always backed out last minute. I really have lots of commitment to my mother and father side’s family because I am the representative of my father and my mum. Both of them had to work on weekends and I will have to go for any family gathering as a representative. If I do not go, I am not giving any respect to them and as well as my parents. I really hope my colleagues would understand. I hope things change for the better. I am really sorry as I do not have the courage to clarify all the misunderstanding. Anyway, I know you guys were having a great time and that’s what I always bless and hope for. I sincerely thank Dedric, Aaron, Jason and Priscilia.
Lastly, I will not forget my buddy, Crystal. We seem to click no matter what. She was there always when I really need someone to talk to and she was the one whom always stand by my side no matter what happens. Thank You.
I know it is just all too late to say this: I am Sorry.
