Tuesday, June 06, 2006
Hurting so deep down inside but there's a smile on my face. (:
I'm not fake...
Im just trying to make my own day
Cuz no one makes mine..
And i don't want the world to see me.
Cause i don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken.
I just want you to know who i am
You once say that you wan mi to smile
Not for u not for anyone but for myself
Even if you are gone one day,you wan mi to continue to smile..
But i have forgotten how to smile the moment u r gone
You are definitely the reason for my smile..
And the reason to wait...
The Smile that I had was not deep from my heart unless you are by my side...
You holds me when I start to cry
Makes me smile with just your eyes...
Shares my hopes, dreams, and fears...
Wipes away all my tears...
I love you without regret...
But you went away the next simple day just like that...
I am a person whom have lost the trust in love since the day you are gone..
It may seems like im strong..
But im not...
I just dun wanna you feel sad for me
I just wanna you live happily...
I always thought that looking back at my tears would makes me laugh
But i never thought that looking back at my laughters would make me cry...
Even worst when you know that the laughters would not be there anymore...
If you really love someone...
You would agree to let them go...
Not because both of you are not meant to be...
but because you wan them to be happy...
Though you cant bear to let them go...
Although I cant bear to let you go but I know I have to...
Even though I am still there hoping that you will be back...
If you ever do want me to stay...
Jux tell me...
And for sure...
I'll Stay...
I'm not fake...
Im just trying to make my own day
Cuz no one makes mine..
And i don't want the world to see me.
Cause i don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken.
I just want you to know who i am
You once say that you wan mi to smile
Not for u not for anyone but for myself
Even if you are gone one day,you wan mi to continue to smile..
But i have forgotten how to smile the moment u r gone
You are definitely the reason for my smile..
And the reason to wait...
The Smile that I had was not deep from my heart unless you are by my side...
You holds me when I start to cry
Makes me smile with just your eyes...
Shares my hopes, dreams, and fears...
Wipes away all my tears...
I love you without regret...
But you went away the next simple day just like that...
I am a person whom have lost the trust in love since the day you are gone..
It may seems like im strong..
But im not...
I just dun wanna you feel sad for me
I just wanna you live happily...
I always thought that looking back at my tears would makes me laugh
But i never thought that looking back at my laughters would make me cry...
Even worst when you know that the laughters would not be there anymore...
If you really love someone...
You would agree to let them go...
Not because both of you are not meant to be...
but because you wan them to be happy...
Though you cant bear to let them go...
Although I cant bear to let you go but I know I have to...
Even though I am still there hoping that you will be back...
If you ever do want me to stay...
Jux tell me...
And for sure...
I'll Stay...
what we could have been, 3:38 PM.
Sunday, June 04, 2006
Hmmm.. Didnt Went home last night.. HaHa.. Was out with My God-Bro and His Girlfriend.. Hiax... Go there Be lightbulb lor.... HaHa...
Hmm...We broke off le... Somehow my tears just fall.. Im sad... Im sad not because we broke off but i feel that i didnt help him to make a moved out of his love life... Hmm.. Been wondering what i can do for him to moved out of it... I think the best way is to be frenx with him...Gif him all the care, concern and support he needed..Draw a LINE between us.. HaHa... Saying that we are nth more than frenx.. This is my first challenge and i never done this before... I think that is the best way of loving a person.. Loving someone, you do not need him to be with you but rather help him moved out of the past and let him be happy...
If everyone ever make a decision, there is three things that we have to ask within ourselves.. Our HEART, SOUL, and MIND.... I hope that he will moved out of him past and also hoped that someone would shower him with with lots of LOVE and never let him lose trust in love again... Love is a beautiful thing and is the only thing that is worthwhile waiting... Sometimes, I hoped that all the past experience happen to me so that at least he would trust love again... HaHa.. Anyway... Being with him for the past few days is nice... Although he never really opened up his heart to me... I hope that whenever he need someone to talk, he'll think of me... I'l be there... I'll provide him with the listening ear he needed.. I also hoped when he say lets remains frens mean remains frens.. I dun wan him to avoid me... This is what I am quite upset about...
Take care of yourself... Term test coming hor... HaHa... Somemore i think your competition is coming.. Be focused...
Last thing i wanna say is... BE HAPPY WITH WHAT HAPPEN IN YOUR LIFE...CHERISH THOSE PEOPLE WHO LOVES YOU...AND I'LL BE THERE WHENEVER YOU NEED ME!!...Heexx....
Hmm...We broke off le... Somehow my tears just fall.. Im sad... Im sad not because we broke off but i feel that i didnt help him to make a moved out of his love life... Hmm.. Been wondering what i can do for him to moved out of it... I think the best way is to be frenx with him...Gif him all the care, concern and support he needed..Draw a LINE between us.. HaHa... Saying that we are nth more than frenx.. This is my first challenge and i never done this before... I think that is the best way of loving a person.. Loving someone, you do not need him to be with you but rather help him moved out of the past and let him be happy...
If everyone ever make a decision, there is three things that we have to ask within ourselves.. Our HEART, SOUL, and MIND.... I hope that he will moved out of him past and also hoped that someone would shower him with with lots of LOVE and never let him lose trust in love again... Love is a beautiful thing and is the only thing that is worthwhile waiting... Sometimes, I hoped that all the past experience happen to me so that at least he would trust love again... HaHa.. Anyway... Being with him for the past few days is nice... Although he never really opened up his heart to me... I hope that whenever he need someone to talk, he'll think of me... I'l be there... I'll provide him with the listening ear he needed.. I also hoped when he say lets remains frens mean remains frens.. I dun wan him to avoid me... This is what I am quite upset about...
Take care of yourself... Term test coming hor... HaHa... Somemore i think your competition is coming.. Be focused...
Last thing i wanna say is... BE HAPPY WITH WHAT HAPPEN IN YOUR LIFE...CHERISH THOSE PEOPLE WHO LOVES YOU...AND I'LL BE THERE WHENEVER YOU NEED ME!!...Heexx....
what we could have been, 12:21 PM.
Friday, June 02, 2006
Hmmm... I really love him alot.. Hope that i will be with him always... It doesnt matters if we will last like he did for 3 yrs and 3 days.. He may feel hurt for the last relationship.. I hope i can heal his heart and let him trust love over again.. I know he cannot promised me forever but at least for now.. I wanna be the one that hes sees... I wanna him feel love... For this time round, Im going to give all i can to love this special person.. I dunno why is him so special to me but I onli know that my love for him is very strong... I LoVe HiM...
::::Thereisnoreason:::::
++Isimplyloveandmissesyousomuch!!++
::::Thereisnoreason:::::
++Isimplyloveandmissesyousomuch!!++
what we could have been, 10:41 PM.
Hmmm.. Today seems to be a bad day.. Hiax...Got all sorts of nonsense... Firstly is in school.. My class accused me of not telling them that abt the $20 dollars thingy.. Hiax... Im so angry lor....But nevermind la is already over... HaHa... Den met Gerard den im very happy lor...HeHe... And at in the evening, went dinner with his family.. HaHa.. Dunno wad they would say.. KeKeKe.. Hehe.. Anyway... The second thing i feel bad today is that i tell him a big 'secret' but did nt affect us... The last thing was... He said there is alot of things in his head... Den he dunno where to start... Den he say he think clearly le den tell me... Is it very negative thing?... It worries me alot... Hiax.. Anyway.. I cherish all the times that i have with him...
::::Thereisnoreason:::::
++Isimplyloveandmissesyousomuch!!++
::::Thereisnoreason:::::
++Isimplyloveandmissesyousomuch!!++
what we could have been, 10:08 PM.
Hmm... After so much.. Finally, got stable down le... But is with this guy name: Gerard... How i met him ar... Rather funny but is for me to know and for you to find out...Went Enyouth with him today...HaHa.. Nv see William there... I wondered wad would happen if both of them sees each other..HaHa... Anyway.. Today is a nice day... Hees... Hes so cute...And i learn this from him too....
"Be The Miracle"...
I like this phrase... Still got one more pharse also quite nice...
"In Archery, you aim then shoot... But In life, you need to shoot then aim..."
Treasuring everyday of my life with him.. HaHa...
:::::Thereisnoreason:::::
++Isimplyloveandmissesyousomuch!!++
"Be The Miracle"...
I like this phrase... Still got one more pharse also quite nice...
"In Archery, you aim then shoot... But In life, you need to shoot then aim..."
Treasuring everyday of my life with him.. HaHa...
:::::Thereisnoreason:::::
++Isimplyloveandmissesyousomuch!!++
what we could have been, 1:16 AM.
You're always on my mind
All day just all the time
You're everything to me
Brightest star to let me see
You touch me in my dreams
We kiss in every scene
I pray to be with you through rain and shiny days
I'll love you till I die
Deep as sea
Wide as sky
The beauty of our love paints rainbows
Everywhere we go
Need you all my life
You're my hope
You're my pride
In your arms I find my heaven
In your eyes my sea and sky
May life our love paradise
You're always on my mind
All day just all the time
You're everything to me
Brightest star to let me see
You touch me in my dreams
We kiss in every scene
I pray to be with you through rain and shiny days
I'll love you till I die
Deep as sea
Wide as sky
The beauty of our love paints rainbows
Everywhere we go
Need you all my life
You're my hope
You're my pride
In your arms I find my heaven
In your eyes my sea and sky
May life our love paradise
I'll love you till I die
Deep as sea
Wide as sky
The beauty of our love paints rainbows
Everywhere we go
Need you all my life
You're my hope
You're my pride
In your arms I find my heaven
In your eyes my sea and sky
May life our love paradise
All day just all the time
You're everything to me
Brightest star to let me see
You touch me in my dreams
We kiss in every scene
I pray to be with you through rain and shiny days
I'll love you till I die
Deep as sea
Wide as sky
The beauty of our love paints rainbows
Everywhere we go
Need you all my life
You're my hope
You're my pride
In your arms I find my heaven
In your eyes my sea and sky
May life our love paradise
You're always on my mind
All day just all the time
You're everything to me
Brightest star to let me see
You touch me in my dreams
We kiss in every scene
I pray to be with you through rain and shiny days
I'll love you till I die
Deep as sea
Wide as sky
The beauty of our love paints rainbows
Everywhere we go
Need you all my life
You're my hope
You're my pride
In your arms I find my heaven
In your eyes my sea and sky
May life our love paradise
I'll love you till I die
Deep as sea
Wide as sky
The beauty of our love paints rainbows
Everywhere we go
Need you all my life
You're my hope
You're my pride
In your arms I find my heaven
In your eyes my sea and sky
May life our love paradise
what we could have been, 12:27 AM.
